Dad bequith his sinus condition,
O dear Ole dad I will never thank you for the constant pressure and having to literately sleep with my thumbs pressed into my nasel passages or with shine from methyl lathem under my nose,
I will not thank you for the years of tear stains upon my pillow,
Or standing between mom and you in a yelling fight,and taking beatings with your belt for it,
I will not thank you for the fear of you,
Or for never bringing friends home so they could experience the hate I bore you and the humiliation of being treated by you, my dad in front of people I wanted to keep as friends,
I will not thank you for that day you came to job and walked right into the employee work space like you own the place shouting ‘Valerie why aren’t you at home!
I only got nine to twelve hours a week,
Or the times I helped move stock and was swore at in front of the neighbors like I was your property to be humiliated,
Or at fourteen taking a loaded gun from you when you had decued you were going to kill mom, Diana’s two kids, Ellen and her friend Debbie Henrysnd me.then yourself,
I didn’t understand what grandpa endured.in Flanders France,
First Sargent Paul John Andrew Heike was in the medical corps his detail I’m uniform was searching the trenches for fallen injured and dead comrand,
Things like that scar your spirit,
I know what that is fifty-eight years after the little girl you adopted at eight had spoiled the years Paul’s granddaughters could have known their grand dad that little girl Diana Lee Heike who had called her new granddad a pedophile for no other reason then that mom was the center of attention meeting mom’s new father in law,
After five failed marriages ,
Four years of gaslighting mom,
Falsely accusing ne of elder abuse twice,
Which did not get mother removed from her home because mother was not being harmed in any way by her gay daughter,
I understand dad,
J do not forgive you,
You drank to forget what you grew up with,
Mother and I suffered,
If you were stronger I would have murdered Diana in Ictiber 2014 when she stuck her fist in mom’s face and yelled at her”You have no right to have doors that lock! You have nothing if value!” After three years of Gaslighting, mother feared the monster her eldest is.
The daughter of the only husband she was ever we’d to who was a wife beater who mother((Marian D. Bittenger divorced when Diana Lee was a year and a half in California.)
No one would have missed her.
I would not have died twice with burnt lungs after Father Jo came to the December 2nd 2014 and suggested I be added to the power of attorney to keep mom safe,
Diana called mom ten times a day,
Mother.and Wllen woukd not died in 2020,
Diana wouldn’t have walked away and would never lite up our laundry room December 3rd, 2014
I would not have died twice ir lost my emtire family,
Val Whitewolf 