Nothing

No food second time this week,

Lost forth kitten in two weeks,

Have go borrow money,

The friend burden of beautiful lives are asks Never how are the cats?

What do you need?

How can I help?

I do more loads of clothes then a small family!

I see no money for the extra life I waste daily not selling books,

I have no clothes!

Can’t go and see a friend with cancer who means alot to me or Die is crappy Iowa who woukd believe my kitchen floor ir my.caroet!

No tools to clean not my fault all my money gies to feed,

Tomorrow I’m taking the day to put books back on line

Buying books,

Looking for deals or writing!

While she knew what I have to live on, she is using her mom’s money she got from the sale of her home.just last year living in Oelwein,Iowa’s crappy ass motel!

Says $222 a week on the sign charges a local $370/week!

The hypocracy is trying to be a good friend!

I tell her my carpets crap now in my first, home,

Her response I told you ,you need to rip out your carpet!

I told her no!

I need to get or rent a steam cleaner just water will not rid.my.carpets if the scent if poop!

I spent eight hours yesterday removing larva ful crappy ass sented kitty box shit to put down justbarrived cat box stuff,

Thought I wanted to be nonprofit,

Hell no!

Before 2010 and Diana Lee Heike Dudley starting to Gaslight Marian Deloras Bittinger Heike of Waukon,Iowa,((my mom)),I was good spirited,trusted.Now if Diana did to mom what she did in October 2014 I’d rip her throat out feed it back to her and drop her carcys in Bill Ferrings sink hole.where he.dropped baby puppies! And woukd have saved mom and my precious baby sister Ellen the Curse of Diana Lee!

I will always care for animals!

I will never trust another human thinking I”m a sap or an easy mark!

I have one fucking light!

Been up since three am it is now four fifty-three am.

Have to send a text to Pete to borrow more money,

Need kitten starter milk that’s twelve a container so I will not loose the next smallest kitten, and sixteen plus tax for another cat food bag.

No money to renew phone,

Fuck the phone!

There is a reason for volunteers,

Babies dying in your arms kills you in bits if you too are an empath!

Nine months the twenty-seventh if September!

I wasn’t being helpful I was saving lives,

Now I’m dying bit by bit,

I’m a book seller and a poet with a pissy friend!

I can’t sell anythingn if nont on line

Books are my product,

My.sanity,

My way out!