food

new friend,

shopping,

true seeing,

I got two Wasabi peas,

One to keep and one to send,

my Arizonia friend had desperately sought mincemeat for christmas pies,

I’m still unclear if she saw that I was sharing,

She said you could have gotten some mincemeat,

My new friend had already gone above and beyond for me,

Plus she bought much needed cat food litter and canned food,

I love the peas,

I thought my Arizona friend who also loves them would understand,

a wearer of her mormon Church for all to see,

those taken back my gift of peace was seen as less than more,

am I too simple-minded to believe that you don’t take take take from people who are going out of their way to help you,

I was brought up, you say thankyou ,

You never asked for things that you don’t want you never really ever ask for things you just say thank you,

I was asked if I wanted anything else and I saw the Wasabi peas I said can I have two of those ,

{They come in really nice metal cans and great for pencils and things but I didn’t say that out loud because I didn’t know if she was a saver too ,I was brought up thinking savers was a good thing}

There are those people who go to extremes that other people made up the Hoarders its a nasty horrible word and those of us who brought up to save we’re not hoarders we are savers,

My Arizona friend said you could have asked for more,

My new friend works three jobs, three of her children live at home,she bought me a.new battery with a three year warrantee,

new TikTok friend and her followers and her followers, sixty pounds of cat food,sixty pounds of litter,eighty cans of soft cat food,

food for me cleaning supplies for me brand new mop pine Sol bleach paper towel but baby wipes the bill came to $414 it was all paid for but her followers I’m still in awe and it’s been 2 weeks,

She wanted to buy me supper you know this is what I do this is what I like to do but no money in my pocket this is not what I can do I have sat and I fussed and I’ve thought how can I write this how can I share what it meant to me am I right or I have to there’s only way I do this is beyond anticipated thought a total stranger watched my videos and wanted to help me and the kitties,

The lady’s from my Iowa lesbian community,

Ruth Is also of my lesbian community,

Ruth’s voice to her opinion when I said I had met this woman this young 55-year-old woman who lives 40 miles away the first thing out of her mouth was hurt but I found a friend,

We are never far from our childhood a good show Donna and her test to that she was a fellow writer that I read,

I think Ruth was jealous because I had found another friend I am not in the league of the woman the young woman I met I was off and I was impressed but I am not I am my cup of tea I am my cup of tea,

I’m a soft Butch lesbian who’s an author,

who has cats and wants to have a refuge non-profit that takes in young cats and cats that are on dogs whose owners or people are going in a nursing homes and they can’t take them and they want a place to keep them and allows them to live out their lives and loved and not be put to sleep want to have 60 acres I want to save horses and and cows and any other animals and teach people exactly what the rescue in in Iowa does that animals are not our dinner animals deserve to exist and be careful and loved.

I can’t be any more than I am I’m a poet and a writer that should ve enough ,

I’m sufficient for me just now ,I shouldn’t have to worry because someone older and dear who I love has got her panties in a wad because heaven forbid I’m talking to another butch lesbian in my state she asked me if I was going to replace her,

I can’t replace.her there’s no reason or any that is it just dumbest response the dumbest thing I’ve ever heard that I Val will replace anyone knowing their value,

I’m not my older half sister who lied me on the Elder abuse and stoled all I love, beyond the elder abuse Diana force our mother but to Texas so she could use her up force her to give away property that was never hers my mom and dad bought Cub Lake from my granddad and my aunt and uncle also were sold half the property . and they had the entire Lake.

Wava died she had.l tumors in her back. Grandpa hickey died before and to even Uncle Norm Uncle Norm loved waiver with all his heart and soul and when she passed and gave up wanting to survive it is pissed off my dad something fierce. Norm had colon cancer is 75% curable and kill Dad when Norman passed away.

curable he watched his older brother died it ripped my dad’s heart out and the first summer after Norm died he spent in his workshop in the basement drinking and crying upon that one weekend the first weekend was going to shoot us all with the 45 y and then turn the gun on himself and shoot himself 14 years old I took a load of gun for my dad he was going to shoot my nephew and niece Julie and Robbie my sister Ellen and her friend Debbie Henry.

We are our life experiences you cannot change us and you cannot make us to what you might expect us to be ,

When I said I got her a can of Wasabi peas to put with a bunch of things that I had collected to send to her for Christmas which I don’t have the money to do right now she asked did you get me and mincemeat?

Ruth’s in Arizona and I’m here I stood still in my home in Quasqueton,Iowa . when Jennifer comes next time and cause helps you with my carpet removed I hope she will understand how grateful I am.

Last week she sent 60 more pounds of cat food and 40 pounds of kitty litter would have been nice if we came from penny but evidently the babies need to eat so I will take the food wherever I can get it.

I will get Ruth for cans of mincemeat and I will get other things to send sand give me a gives me a job.

I want to help her with her food I can’t even help myself until I’m working, not going to get angry for her thinking I should take more when it’s not my speed to take more.

Helping and doing for others is always old and I can do and I can’t do that poor,

I see no advantage of me not being who I am and to change. so this is why I will remain me Val, a port who writes.

My new friend on TikTok is cowboyJen

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZPRcxMMvt/

Thats my porch behind her shes.working on my car