Four

What personal belongings do you hold most dear?

I hate this when an hour of reading vanishes,

I have anger,

Where my good name used to be,

I have an empty heart,

we’re loving used to grow,

lie down to elder abuse,

by a narcissistic sister,

Stole mom’s home with a fire,

After two and a half years of gaslighting,

And a fire set in our laundry room with mother and I watch TV two rooms away,

Whatever accelerate she used laid waste to our laundry room like Hiroshima when big boy was dropped upon it

Took out dad’s gun cabinet,

In October after Diana yelled at mother with her whole voice and her hand and mother’s face‘you don’t have the right to have doors locked you have nothing of value!

Diana knew that after two and a half years of belittling mother 10 times a day that she could control mother,

Diana knew the night after I had a priest come to the house to discuss protecting mother from Diana that we had had a priest come to the house,

Father John suggested changing mother’s power of attorney,

Diana had Ellen by her p****,

Diana could  never control me,

Diana’s gay sister was stronger than she was,

I wasn’t going to allow mother to be bulldozed out of her home and to be under Diana’s thumb no man wanted that,

Five married her five divorced her five put her in none of their wills,

Diana tried getting on fibromyalgia so she could be on disability but that fell through,

Diana was panicking in December 3rd she drove from Granbury Texas to Waukon Iowa and let our laundry room on fire,

in October she had removed all the smoke alarm batteries except for one the one in the stairwell to the basement,

Smoke had to go underneath the bathroom in the crawl space to get to the celler to ring that smoke alarms Bell,

In October when Diana screamed at mother full force in her face we are both stunned cuz her bullying and her torment hadn’t been physical this scared the f****** s*** out of both of us and we had no proof of it but it happened we have proof of other things I paid the phone bill I knew how many times Diana called today and what it did to mother,

Diana is a monster my family not me not the gay daughter he was always there for her mother,

Mother refused to allow me to lock doors after that but I had locked the gun cabinet Diana was going to take all dad’s guns to her son the wife beater just like her father in Texas,

I stood away two guns upstairs muzzleloaders for my nephews not realizing neither one of them would stand up for me they would suck at Diana’s tit and believe all her lies and they knew better those boys knew their aunt never harmed anyone ever,

EVER!

EVER!

no guts no glory!

It’s a paper trail the day after the fire the sheriff of Allamakee County most northeast corner of the state of Iowa found all dad’s guns and ammo in the front room off the den.

If they had been in a gun cabinet when Diana’s fire leave the cross the front and the house would have blown up and mother and I would have surely both died I died twice that night two murders two nights no one would have suspected it no one suspected Diana had nuked our laundry room the fire was so hot it punched hole beside the front door outside,

Above the dining room dining room door it was literally singed as a fire leaked across the the walkway up the green shag carpet and directly right out of the roof it harmed nothing on either side and yet my nephew and my cousin threw it all my first editions my guitar classical guitar and amp with missing including my golf clubs,

This is what everything in rooms at the fire didn’t even go into it didn’t touch either of the two rooms upstairs it went directly out the ceiling there was no insulation upstairs so in the winter the upstairs was freezing,

I want four things,

Mother’s ashes back in Iowa so she can be interned with her folks which is part of her will,

My baby sister Ellen’s death certificate she died 7 months after mom died with another Diana visit so she could rape mother’s bank account of all valuables and moneys,

Ellen had sent me my birth certificate she had found in mother’s safe at home bent crumpled up and in an envelope.

twenty twenty I got two visits from the cops,

Wanted to tell me my mom was dead neither one of my nephews could drive 66 mi to my home to tell me my mom was dead,

Codeine stays in the body for 3 days mother is cremated that day she died,

I have no idea where her body is but I want it in Iowa where she wanted to stay,

You really have no help,

I gave sixteen pages of things that Diana had done to mother and I and the Human service of Iowa  they didn’t give a crap,

With every trip Diana made to walk on Iowa she did something horrific to mother and I,

Including at the seventy calls a week threatening our mother to take her against her will to Granbury Texas that is Eder Abuse,

I will see Diana’s finances,

People will all know what she did to mother and me,

And I wouldn’t ever to clear my name ,

The only thing you were actually giving at birth is your name,

You build your honor and make your name of worth,

I will have my physical bookstore in Wisconsin and Paul my death after I’m cremated my body my ashes was slipped into Cub Lake where Dad and Ellen’s ashes lay,