why

why would we tell people or share that we have found work all I see is negative  attributes and crooks around every corner,

why !

people who really aren’t friends really were naive stupid!

two days ago I was employed I’m still employed,

some guy I don’t know wants me to call Amazon or whoever to make sure what I’m doing is a real job,

I’m a writer since 1985,

when I tell people I’m a writer I get the same negative attributes,

you can’t be a writer raiders right!

Schmucks!!!!!

I’ve been published writer since 1985,

I’ve been stung,

you know those people on site,

they send you money there that are phony checks,

I take them to the bank or to the post office you never see them again,

I made a mistake of trusting and I have cash checks that didn’t sound like it was intelligent thing to do because why couldn’t they cash their own checks and pay their employees?

in 2005 my folks the had three farms,

my folks paid back half of the $5,000 that I was told to cash and send out to these people,

I wasn’t the only one in Allamakee County in northern Iowa who was sent bogus checks,

but my folks said property,

the bank made my folks pay back $2,500,

I was gullible,

I was trusting,

I was fool hardy,

now I have a small clerk job,

takes 30 minutes a day,

I get paid daily,

I’m not paying them I cent,

I have money in an account now that’s not $5 in the hole,

I’m going to continue at it and hope for the best,

I can pay off my home,

fix my car,

start delivering,

paid $170 I owe for my landlord for the gas for coming to my home for an hour for 4 days to 15 minutes to try to fix my furnace last fall could not fix my furnace and his wife charged me for gas to come to the trailer park to work all day for others,

that I owe $170,

that I can have the rest of my carpet ripped out and I can have a sealant put on my concrete is my elbow is killing me from my little bit of removing of a little rug,

I can pay what I owe the hospital it’s about 2:30,

and get new brakes it’s been 3 years since I’ve had my car 4 years, new mufflers cuz I sound like I’m an old car going rrrrerer!

maybe a new starter just for kicks to have,

maybe even remove the rust I know that’s a pipe dream maybe you better just get a new vehicle but my mom’s death bought me my car,

how dare people not be happy for me I’m no longer sitting hour after hour trying to get someone to see my worth!

well it’s 5:33 a.m. and I’m going to sleep until 10:00 then my cord has started to rip and it’s burning my leg so I’m going to get a new cord and go back to working and trying to clean my home and remove the bad carpet as much as I can what is pain anyway?

I owe $3,700 of my home I want to pay that off and go solar,

help my adopted sister with food and clean your supplies she gets 1500 a month it goes for her home,

meals wheels are crap 5 days a week and get a little tiny container of food for the entire day,

nothing on the weekend,

even Ruth thought I was being stupid,

the pay is in bitcoins,

I see there’s a win-win,

I hate being seen I’ve seen his worthless,

I’m not worthless,

I do video after video after video to get $10,000 on tiktok so I can modernize,

I have to do a live tomorrow I think I’ll go to my favorite part on the river,

well good night everybody my elbows really hurting me and I’m going to go get some sleep good night,

it’s time someone has something really neat happened to them I hope you’ll try to see it from their point of view he wants to be dead if you’re going to be probably just drinking forever I’m for that death instead of this anymore,

no food for 3 weeks that I eat peanuts all the time,

no food no money

I want to start a soup kitchen in Independence Iowa,

you’re only allowed once a month to the food bank here in town that is not enough food for maybe 2 days,

the money I heard will pay my debt and we’ll start me up and I’ll be able to buy more books to sell and I can help you because poor I can’t help anybody I might as well be dead,