This week

I lost four babies,

3 3-month-old kittens,

all special,

unique,

individuals,

Snikers, my silver grey kitten  who was 5 months old

Snikers spirit left his body in my arms in my bedroom,

So was just an empty vessel that I put in a bag and put in the trash,

God damn I hate that!

I love them and they’re all in my heart,

I held them while they went across the bridge,

The bridge that Bridges me from them,

They left me behind,

There’s not fair that they did,

I have other babies be careful,

If you get knowledge that I need that I have forgotten so that I never lose babies like this again so I have money to eat so I have money for veterinarians,

It really is a b**** to be alive I have no money to fix your car or eat,

Last two nights I had dried frosted shredded wheat and a couple drinks of prune juice and a can of fruit,

Earlier I shared some of my hand that I have left,

All the kitties got some ham,

They’re all like all of her twists you know,

None of them understand there is no more,

Thia month isn’t over yet,

I mean $822 a month,

So I get 93.00 to live on,

I want to be working full time,

I applied over and over until I’m blue in the face and Walmart to work,

Work there and limp or are on a cane,

I never hear and train at 36 years working with people cashiering to management merchandising,

I don’t know will survive if we don’t get that heat that the government had been giving out with all face to death in my home everybody in this trailer court will freeze to death,

I want to be working I have goals and aspirations that I want and that I desire,

My narcissist sister in Granbury Texas to my family and most of my heart,

Why is it the evil people always win,