No!
At any point in life will you ever enjoy feeling small?
No!
I was told last night that somebody I knew that I had for 2 years I loved saw me as unsuccessful!
I have never quit,
in December 22 I took in a friend’s nine cats and a bird and a turtle,
I cared with love and a full heart for those of those cats and bird and turtle,
I gave the box turtle to roll in thunder outside of Independence Iowa it’s a wildlife sanctuary,
Five years later her bird that is near is 30 now it’s still alive they’re only expected to live 20 years,
I’ve gotten all but two adults of cats taken to the Humane shelter in Dubuque with help from Friends and a couple times from the lady who owned the cats you can’t own cats!
That is an oxymoron,
I lost adult cats and I’ve lost precious babies and each time it tore a hole in my heart ,
Not once did I fail them,
Sometimes we starve together as we are starving now,
She has told me over and over just open the door and throw cats out,
Whether you or anyone else cares the ones I care for are my family and my heart,
Two years ago my Snuggles got out, she is happy and content living in the court where she was born and her mother was born people abandoned animals here all the time,
Neighbor in mobile home 22 , I loved her my car but with my precious mothers inherited money,
I stopped loaning to her when I realized I was being screwed not when people were streaming at me don’t loan your car to her and they claimed you Christians something I never claim to be not since they ripped my heart out and killed me and left me for dead,
I have found the most Savage of beast is a Christian,
The one that is off for 2 years with an open heart that I loved
I still loved not necessary to do it anymore out loud,
She doesn’t comprehend part of us who are Gay,
You people never get those of us who are gay we’re just like you,
However more sensitive and when you poke us we bleed more!
I’m not a failure because I’m not rolling in money,
I’m not a failure because I don’t fit into your ideals being successful,
Sell books and I care for those in my care,
My car is needed work for 2 years I still use it I have no choice,
With watered eyes I see clearer I’ve never too old to lose your heart,
Its something can’t guard or lock up or imagine throwing away a key,
I was told last night she bought her roommate of $4,000 hearing aid on credit,
What is it different than me driving around or trying to help my neighbor who doesn’t know enough to help herself and think that if she prays it will happen!
Well I can’t continue to sit here and cry ruins you have to pee,
I have another bowl of oatmeal I guess I’ll go to sleep who cares,

